Every teacher I know did not become a teacher to guide kids and parents through how to learn during a global crisis of unknowns and sickness.

We are trying to fly a plane while building it.

That loud thud? That was a bird hitting the plane.

No, wait.

That was me banging my head against my desk during my 5th reopening zoom where we got a whole lot of information and a lot more questions.

Anyone else?

My educator heart and mind loves and craves routine and connection. It does not crave time in front of a computer zooming or standing six feet away from my coworkers wearing a mask.

I want a dang hug and high five.

However, that is where I find myself. At the start of the year that no one wanted. Staring at my growing list of questions and frustrations. However, right beside that list, I have a list of 18 names.

18 names that connected to 18 little hearts and minds. 18 names that only get one first chance at being 6 and 7. 18 names that didn’t get to graduate kindergarten.

18 names that have me as their teacher.

So for those 18 names, I will breathe deep. I will pray. I will choose to find creative solutions to one problem at a time. I will acknowledge my breaking point and go for a walk. I will probably cry. I will choose to find new ways to connect and love them. I will choose to start dreaming of the good that can happen in this crazy year. I choose to be super cheesy and remember my “why” like my administration tells me every year.

Then I will forget those things. I will get frustrated and start the process all over.

Most importantly, I will choose to not go it alone.

Which means turning to scripture and prayer.

Here are a few scriptures to meditate on and soak in.

And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him. Colossians 3:17

But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere. Peacemakers who sow in peace reap a harvest of righteousness. James 3:17-18

Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. Colossians 3:15

My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires. James 1:19

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go. Joshua 1:9

If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. James 1:5

The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still. Exodus 14:14

I would love for you to share your “why” and go to scriptures for the year in the comments!